“For a few seconds, there we stand—observers and participants—utterly mortal in a world of vast, unspeakable beauty.”

—Jacoba Urist, from Cig Harvey’s “You an Orchestra You a Bomb”

I watch the children, fascinated by every little thing in the conservatory. They reach their hands into the small pools of water, and I am immediately carried back to my own days of parenting my sons. I am happy to walk the gardens and share in their joy. I take a picture of roses against a sky that I know will be blown out to white and decide that I like it that way.

Feels Like the First Time

As I walked the garden paths, camera-in-hand, visitors greeted me.

“Hey, you have your camera. Have you seen it? The first lotus flower of the season bloomed today. Sure would make a good picture!”

They were right.

The First Lotus Flower of the Season, Lewis Ginter Botanical Gardens, Spring 2026

This Is Joy

My summer flower subscription just began. That’s six weeks of fresh floral bouquets from Westwind Flower Farm & Studio delivered to my front porch. Because we live small in many ways, I’m able to splurge on luxuries like fresh flowers. It’s all about trade-offs that are worth it for us. Choices that align with our values (which I realize is a privilege, this having choices thing.) I am continuing work on my photo book project, Florilegium. Today’s work was delightful.

This Is Really Hard

I can’t tell if I am trying differently or still trying too hard. Either way, I’m not willing to give up. Not yet, anyway.