These days I try to focus my limited energy in directions that bring me joy, allow me to rest, reassure me, help me to grow, and generally feel good about myself. I get so much from my one and only paid substack subscription, Strong and Stable with Annie Wright. (If you are interested and want to try out Strong and Stable, I have a few gift subscriptions to share. Let me know.) Today’s post is all about To-Do Lists and I could definitely relate. I’m sharing a few excerpts here:
“I am, by nature, a highly generative person. I love adventure. I genuinely want to experience a lot of life and leave everything on the court, so to speak. I want to live up to my potential, create deeply meaningful work, see what's possible for me to contribute and build in my lifetime.
But separating that natural drive from the compulsive, fear-based urgency? That's where it gets tricky.
Here's what I'm learning to notice: the quality of energy behind the impulse.
The first one comes with this panicky, constricted energy. My chest gets tight. My breathing becomes shallow. My thoughts spiral toward scarcity and comparison. It's that feeling of being behind, being less than, needing to prove something to an invisible judge who's never satisfied.
The second comes from inspiration and genuine creative drive. It feels expansive. There's anticipation instead of anxiety. My body feels energized, not depleted.”
