Somewhere along the way, I learned that the goal in photography was to make pictures about something rather than of something. In fact, I’m pretty sure I learned this axiom in multiple places and from multiple teachers or experts in the field. For a long time, I understood this to mean that that my photographs needed to be less concrete or maybe less superficial. They needed to express some theme or emotion. They needed to be meaningful, deep, evocative. For a while, this belief held me back, keeping me from just pointing my camera at what I noticed, as I paused to consider if the scene in the frame was, indeed, about something.

And then, as in most every learning journey, the fog began to lift and I could see my way clearly. The truth is this: I take pictures of what I am passionate about, what I am drawn to, what resonates with me, and most of the time, I have no idea why. At least, not in the moment. As I live with these pictures over time, returning to visit them like old friends, I begin to see connections between them. I can see how they relate and what meaning they hold for me. Just like relationships between friends, the connections between the pictures in a body of work are not always easy or obvious. The bonds are felt more than reasoned. And this is more than enough to tell a story or write a poem with pictures.

These two film photographs were taken in my hometown of Colonial Beach, Virginia. When I visit now, I am more tourist than local. In many ways, it is hard to watch the town grow—new condos going up and every spare inch of real estate being developed. But this will always be the place where I grew up. Where I swam in the river, had my first kiss, and graduated from high school. Where I returned week after week as long as my mother lived there. If it is home that grounds us, this will always be where I am rooted.

Photography has a lexicon that is sometimes predatory in nature. We speak of shooting or taking shots.

Seeking, finding, hunting for pictures. Capturing, recording and documenting.

I wonder if it would serve us better to think of receiving photographs. Being open to them. Accepting. Embracing. And nurturing them.

More film photographs from Lewis Ginter Botanical Gardens in Richmond, Virginia. I treated myself to an annual membership to the gardens so I can pop in for an hour or so at various times of the day through the seasons. At first, I worried that this might become boring. Flowers and more flowers.

But then I watched a You Tube video by one of my favorite photography teachers, Willhem Verbeek, Finding New Photography Projects, and I came away with reassurance that I am on the right track. I just needed a little validation that sinking deeply into one place could be worthwhile.

“This is my way of finding new photography projects — forcing me to think of new ways to photograph the same thing over and over again and still make it feel different than the last image.”—Willhem Verbeek

I’m looking forward to seeing how the collection grows.

He waited patiently in the car, heat blasting, for me to take the pictures. When I slipped back inside, face flush from the cold, he asked what I was taking a picture of. Of course, he is used to me and he only smiled when I replied, “Skid marks.”

I have never been in a car that spun around. Well, except for once or twice during ice storms in our area. I was always afraid of bumper cars, too. Worried that I would be that kid stuck in the corner, turning the wheel and going nowhere. I was afraid of those mirror mazes, too. Worried I might never find my way out. And those big slides at the fair. The ones where you lie down on a burlap sack and slide so fast — I couldn’t try. Not jumping off the diving board or zip lining across a forest. Only recently have I begun to understand how growing up in a chaotic home made for a fearful adult unable to trust others to keep her safe. It might seem a pity, but I have compassion for myself. It is not too late.