When times are difficult, I tend to isolate myself. There have been times in my life when I barely wanted to leave the house and had to force myself to interact with people.

Maybe we all have times like this, when we think it might be healing to retreat, and often times this is so. But rest and respite can turn into hiding. And the more we hide, the harder it becomes to face those realities, which are, after all, inescapable.

From Derek Siver’s notes on When Things Fall Apart

We use all kinds of ways to escape. All addictions stem from the moment when we meet our edge and we just can’t stand it. We feel we have to soften it, so we become addicted to whatever it is that seems to ease the pain, so we don’t have to feel the full impact of the pain that arises when we cannot manipulate the situation to make us come out looking fine.

What photography has given me is a way of being okay with the uncertainties, hurts and feelings. I process my emotions through the pictures I take and the words I share.

I can show my work without fear or need for acceptance simply because of this practice, both an act and an activity. And in doing so, I find my circle of friends and supporters.

I think the trick is finding people that love and understand your work without you having to explain yourself or being compared and letting everybody else go. Our need for acceptance can make us invisible in this world. –Johnny Patience

And who wants to be invisible?

Day 316

Day 316