I’ve learned that anxiety is a warning sign for me. The last few days I’ve felt unsettled and irritable. I thought maybe I was just tired, so I made sure get a good night’s rest. But, I still had that tell-tale tightness in my chest.

And now I know why. It all started with an email I received from GettyImages with what might be considered good news.

Congratulations! The editing team here have been through your submissions and think you might be very promising as a future iStocker! We would like to offer you an invitation to share your talents and apply to become an iStock by Getty Images contributor.

I thought I should be honored and happy, but what I felt was wary. This morning I worked my way through the legal and technical training manual designed to help photographers learn about creating and selling stock. With every page turned, I became more and more certain that this was not for me. And suddenly I felt relieved and all that anxiety dissipated like fog burned off as the sun comes out.

Now the only question remaining is to study my feelings. I sometimes feel as though I spend so much time and energy on photography that I should find a way to make money doing it. I feel a little guilty calling this passion of mine “work” when it really is so much fun. Then, I remind myself that feelings are not facts. And I nestle into the happiness that comes from knowing I am doing what I love.

I like CJ Chilvers take on the subject of being an amateur –

On your deathbed, will you regret not having made a few extra bucks on your photography? It’s more likely you will regret not creating more art.

Concentrate on making your images remarkable, instead of marketable. If you photograph what you love to photograph, without regard for money, you’ll create better images, which could lead to the possibility of money. Just don’t count on the money.

Day 133

Day 133