I’m reading from two interesting books this week.
Imposter syndrome tends to afflict high achievers because high achievers, being the demanding creatures they are, gravitate toward what is lacking, what needs to improve. A high achiever will critique the negative parts of his or her performance rather than celebrate the things that went well. The powers of self-critique can be a mighty force in producing great work, but all of that questioning leaves a residue of doubt that even choruses of applause sometimes can’t wipe away. –Grant Faulkner, Pep Talks for Writers
Sometimes this is me. I visited a photography club this week, and for a little while, I just felt like I didn’t belong. I thought to myself, “any minute now, these people are going to figure out that I don’t know a thing about how to process an image or calibrate a lens or use a flash . . . or any of the hundred other things I don’t know how to do.”
I took a deep breath, and found comfort in something I’d read in the second book. These words reassured me.
In yourself lies the whole world and if you know how to look and learn, then the door is there and the key is in your hand. Nobody can give you either that key or that door to open except yourself. –KrishnaMurti, philosopher/poet, Your Story is Your Power
This is Elaine, stranger-now-friend, who graciously agreed to let me take her picture. I want to critique this image. I want to make a plan to improve. Instead, I will sit with pride and joy because I showed up, because I reached across the table to introduce myself, because I had the courage to ask to make the picture, and because I pressed the shutter with faith.