awareness

As I continue my reading and study in the book, Zen Camera, I recognize myself in David Ulrich’s words.

“I’ve observed many photographers at work. Those who are the most successful have one defining feature: they become intensely absorbed with their task, to the exclusion of all distractions. Even hunger and bodily comfort are secondary to their concentration, and I’ve seen them maintain this state of focused intensity for hours. They dance with the flow of the scene, patiently wait for the right light, the right conditions with single-pointed gaze on the subject. It’s the same with most artists.”

In the pages of this book, I find great comfort. I know that I am sometimes perceived as driven, and I often feel the need to downplay this characteristic. I try to regulate my behaviors to reach some more balanced state, and yet this runs contrary to my very being.

I wake up with a head full of ideas and have literally rushed outside to the garden to take pictures in my pajamas. My husband reminds me to stop my work and eat, but I don’t want to pause. I’ve carried the camera until my back ached and my arm fatigued. I work with great endurance and patience.

I am energized by the work such that an expanded focus and intense absorption come naturally.

What I love about this book is the reassurance that I am on the right path for me.

It’s okay to go against the grain.

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